Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Losses and Gains 2012

Cover of "A Good Year (Widescreen Edition...

Given that we have now ushered in 2013, this seems an appropriate time to render an honest assessment of what I’ve gained and lost in the past year, and what changes may await me in the coming year.

2012 Negatives
  • Started having mini panic attacks
  • Two painful experiences with lumbar punctures
2012 Positives
2013 Potential Losses (if my disease progression resumes these may be the things that I lose next)
  • Ability to operate zippers (already very difficult)
  • The rest of my personal grooming tasks
  • Ability to sign my own name (that’s all I currently do for handwriting)
  • Sitting up in bed, unassisted
  • Transferring to and from my wheelchair, unassisted
  • Feeding myself
  • A few things that I can’t even imagine (the devil I don’t know)
2013 Potential Gains
  • Another year of negligible disease progression (fingers crossed)
  • Saving the iBot (Dec 31, 2013 is our “mobility cliff”)
  • Trip to Jamaica (expect posts in March)
  • Still more new friends (despite my lack of social skills, they keep coming)
  • Entire summer in new, more walkable neighborhood
  • A few things that I can’t even imagine (P. F. Chang’s opens a restaurant in my neighborhood?)
  • Another year above ground
images This 2012 assessment is much more upbeat than my 2011 assessment. That was a rough year for me, and so I was naturally pessimistic about 2012. But things have turned around, at least for the moment. By no means am I assuming that my disease stabilization will continue, but it’s a bit like winning a sports championship – nobody can take it away from me. My 2012 MS Success trophy now sits prominently on my mantle, to the left of the trophy for Stuffed an Entire Peanut Butter Sandwich in My Mouth that I won in 7th grade, and to the right of the trophy for Made a Move on the Freshman Girl with the Nice Ass and Playful Personality that I won in 10th grade.

Nobody can ever take these accomplishments away from me.
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  1. What with the holidays and all I haven't gotten around to commenting on either of these last two posts but just wanted you to know I enjoyed them both immensely. I too take stock at the end of every year. There was a time when the progression was so slow that it actually took a full year to notice any differences. Ah, how things can change!

    What I really liked about this latest post is the balance. Yes, reality is there, but so is perspective. I can live like that.
    Happy New Year, Mitch!

  2. Daphne, Happy New Year to you as well!

    I do feel that I am a balanced person. Sometimes that comes across as wishy-washy or noncommittal, but that's just the way I am.