Tuesday, June 12, 2012

A Look Back

2010 06 15I launched this blog nearly 3 years ago. I know most of you started reading here more recently, so I thought it would be a good idea to rerun my original, introductory blog post, which still rings true. Current commentary is in red text.

Let's Get This Party Started

My legs are pretty much shot. My left hand is rapidly losing its dexterity and strength, and my right hand is starting down that road. My arms are still somewhat strong, but are getting weaker all the time. I can’t participate in many of the recreational or social activities that I used to. I can’t perform many of the basic functions that a person needs to perform to get through the day. I can’t even work for a living. I take a bunch of prescription drugs, sometimes of the experimental variety, because there is no know cure or even effective treatment for Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis.

The above litany is not a complete list of my MS symptoms. I've got more, but I'll spare you the complete accounting. My point being- if I don't mention it, don't assume I'm not experiencing it.

Bad luck, huh? Life is unfair, right? It must suck to be confined to a wheelchair. You might think that this would be so, but for me it is largely not the case. I have good days and bad days, but no more so than the average 45 (48) year old man. I’m not happy that I have MS, but I am happy. I spend almost no time lamenting over what could have been, or regretting my misfortune. Because I enjoy my life as much as I ever did (that's pushing it, I must admit), despite its challenges, am I crazy, in denial, or am I on to something? I started this blog in part to explore those types of questions.

I believe that an individual's level of happiness is largely self determined. However, to be practical about it, we are also influenced by our own inherent personality traits and by our interactions with the world around us. Here are a few things that I have working in my favor- traits and experiences that just make it a little easier for me to live a contented life:
  • Good internal wiring. I have a favorable genetic makeup for dealing with situations like this. Thanks Mom and Dad.
  • I have an incredible support system. It starts with my wife, and includes other family, friends, and medical professionals. My support system also includes my online MS friends, almost none of whom I’ve actually met face to face. (This is even more true today than three years ago)
  • I watched and learned as my mother endured similar challenges with incredible grace and courage. Her disability was due to a sudden accident when she was 35 years old and I was only 5. Her spinal cord injury was in her cervical spine. My primary lesion load (area of disease activity) is in my cervical spine, in almost the exact same location as my mother’s injury. The longer I battle this disease the more my symptoms resemble hers. I know. It’s freaky.
  • I have some level of financial stability. I'm not wealthy, but I might not be so happy if I was cold or wet, or worried about where my next meal would come from.
  • Although I'm often fatigued, I am not in much pain, and I rarely feel "sick".
  • I have widely varied interests. When I can no longer enjoy one activity, there is another activity on my list that I can take up (i.e., blogging).
  • I have the ability to enjoy sedentary pursuits. If this had happened to my hyperactive wife, for example, it would have been a significantly greater challenge.
2010 07 041I readily admit that I have a lot of things going for me that many disabled folks don’t have, evidenced by the list above. So I’m not here to say that I have a formula that every disabled person can follow to achieve true happiness. In fact I can't say with certainty that I'd still have this positive attitude under any circumstances. I'm just here to get the conversation going.

The reason I am blogging now, and never have blogged before now, is that as of May, 2009 I have lots of time on my hands and need something fun, interesting, and useful to help fill my day. After 8 years of getting up and going to work with MS, it finally got to the point where I could no longer do my job. If you have not read the About Me section on the right hand sidebar yet, please take a minute to do so.

Here are some desirable potential outcomes of this blogging adventure, in no particular order:
  1. I will connect in a variety of ways with people who I don't currently know. (big time)
  2. This blog will stimulate some interesting conversations on a variety of disability related topics. (indeed, it has)
  3. This blog will have any sort of positive impact on some of the folks who visit it. (maybe one or two)
  4. I will leave a legacy of writing that will outlive me, so that my descendants will understand what life was like for their disabled ancestor. (maybe too much writing)
  5. The process of maintaining the blog will be in some way therapeutic for me. (no doubt about it)
  6. I will come to understand myself better. (yup)
  7. Those who know and/or love me will come to understand me better. (since I'm kind of a quiet introvert, this has no doubt been the case)
  8. I will advocate for the disabled community: raise awareness, articulate our plight, help facilitate change (I don’t know how articulate I’ve been)
  9. Some media giant will buy my blog and I will get rich. Ha, that is rich. (Still waiting)
Here is one undesirable potential outcome of this blogging adventure:
  1. In the process of organizing, acknowledging, and posting my thoughts here, I will come to my senses and realize I’m completely screwed, and change the name of this blog from “Enjoying the Ride” to “Life Sucks- Why Bother?”. (Although my introspection has not sent me off the deep end, I must admit that some of the pieces that I've written have provided a dose of reality)
Let’s just get this party started and see where it takes us. Thanks for visiting. My hope is that this blog will be more of a conversation than a presentation, so please feel free to use the "comments" option at the bottom of each posting to give feedback. Also, please feel free to share the http://www.enjoyingtheride.com/ link with anyone who you think might be interested.

It’s more than 200 posts later, and I'm still blogging, although sometimes I get lazy and just re-run old shit Smile


  1. I'm so glad you started your blog --
    I love reading what you have to say!

  2. Being a quiet introvert myself, I don't comment here much Mitch. But I do read every post and you definitely help me think more positively about life. I enjoy your posts and I hope you keep blogging for a long time to come. Congrats on 3 years!

  3. 1. Ain't it grand!
    2. I'll say!
    3. Are you kidding--you've positively impacted a lot more than that!
    4. Never too many words from you, Mitch!
    7. You're an INtrovert?
    8. VERY articulate!
    9. Hope springs eternal, etc...

    Old, new, keep 'em coming!

  4. Muffie,

    Thanks for your kind words, and thanks for being a loyal reader and commentor.


    I'm glad you took the time to introduce yourself. I'm glad you enjoy the blog.


    You lift me up!

  5. Yay for us that you took that leap and started this blog. :) You are an inspiration, with your loving perspective on your mother and your reminder that happiness is a choice and everything in between. Thank you. {{hugs}}

  6. I add myself to those who are thankful that you are still writing your blog. As a new "blogger" with PPMS I find great solace and even, I know this is going to sound really sick but, "joy" in being able to share experiences or what it is like to have, accept, not accept, find contentment, become frustrated, and the other many emotions, trials and tribulations of life with a chronic degenerative disease. I thank you for your candor in sharing your journey and look forward to becoming a part of the "conversation" if that's okay with you.

  7. Maggi, welcome to the blogosphere! It's nice to see another PPMSer online, especially one as passionate as you. I hope your blog brings you many hours of enjoyment, as mine has for me.